大风·2018.3
对不起。 I'm sorry.
我可能不应该打电话的。 I probably shouldn't be calling
我想我犯了个错误，一个很大的错误。 I think I made a mistake, a really big mistake.
我希望我们在这里，因为我以为你知道怎么做， I wish you we're here because I think you'd know what to do
我想我会听你的。 and I think I'd listen to you.
我想我是唯一听你话的人。 I think you're the only one I'd listened to.
可是，你不在这里。 But, you're not here.
嘿。 Hey.
我们出去吧。 Let's get out of here.
你饿了？ You hungry?
没有。 No.
我们去别的地方。 Let's really go somewhere.
有性趣？ Got something in mind?
很有可能。 Quite possibly.
嗯哼。 Mhm.
很惊喜吧？ Surprised?
你会喜欢的。 You're going to like it.
等不及了。 Can't wait.
我们他妈的在哪里？ Where the fuck are we?
这是这里。 Exactly.
这不漂亮吗？ Isn't it beautiful?
不，这可一点也不漂亮。 No, it's not beautiful at all.
看上去很恐怖。 It's scary looking.
我知道。 I know.
这不好吗？ Isn't it great?
我感觉我在这里会被谋杀的。 I feel like I'm about to get murdered here.
有可能。 You might.
噢，该死。 Oh, shit.
哇。 Wow.
我知道，对吗？ I know, right?
你以为我们做完了吗？ Did you think that we were finished?
如果我知道你会这样 If I'd known you were going to be
一直盯着这个东西的话， glued to that thing the whole time
我就不会过来了。 I never would have come down.
别生气，亲爱的。 Don't be upset dear.
我正在为你找文章。 I'm looking at articles here for you.
很好。 Great.
那正是我给你买电脑的原因。 That's what I get for buying you a computer.
你不是为我买的，亲爱的。 You didn't buy it for me, dear.
你只是帮我顺手带回来了。 You helped me pick it out.
这里有一篇关天替代疗法的文章 There's a great article here on alternative treatments
是关于胃灼热的。 for heartburn.
你现在还一直胃疼吗？ Do you still get that a lot?
我给你把它打印出来。 I'm going to print it out for you.
怎么了，亲爱的？ What's wrong, honey?
你还有时会看到她，是吗？ You still see her sometimes, don't you?
你妹妹？ Your sister?
没有，亲爱的。 No, sweetheart.
这也没过多长时间。 Not for a very long time.
我过去常常在阳光下看到她。 I used to see her outside in the sun
只有要阳光时。 whenever there was sun
在你小时候，和你一起在操场上玩。 and on the playground with you when you were a little boy.
她从不希望你孤独。 She never wanted you to be lonely.
惹人爱的孩子。 Such a loving child.
前几天我看见她了。 I saw her again the other day.
就是她。 It was her.
我知道是她。 I know it.
你怎么知道是不是她？ How do you know it's not her?
有时，我们回不到过去。 Sometimes we just don't come back.
你妹妹的灵魂也很大了。 Your sister was a very old soul.
她没有理由再回来了。 There was no reason for her to come back again.
没有什么离开的…… There was nothing left...
你没看到她，所以我也不能看到？ You don't see her, so I can't?
我不是这个意思。 That's not what I said.
我再也感觉不到她了。 I don't feel her anymore.
以前我总是能感觉到她来看我。 I could always sense when she visited before
在你长大后，我就没有感觉到了。 and I haven't felt that since you were a little boy.
也许这回你不会感觉到了。 Maybe you won't feel it this time.
也许她只是想看我来的。 Maybe she only wants to see me.
我看着你，亲爱的。 I see you, sweetheart.
而且我相信她也会这样的。 And I'm sure she does too.
你怎么这么长时间才来开门？ How does it take you this long to answer the door?
这个地方很压抑。 So this place is depressing.
电视不错。 It's a nice TV.
谁买的？ Who paid for it?
噢，这次她没帮你？ Oh, she didn't help you out this time?
你有个事得做，你知道是什么吗？ You're a piece of work, you know that?
我猜是成家吧。 Runs the family I guess.
所以我和苏珊谈了谈。 So I talked to Susan.
你为什么和她说这个？ Why do you call her that?
你真的以为光坐在这里 Are you really just going to sit there
你就会表现出好像这一切都好吗？ and you're just going to act like everything's fine?
就像你不会再象以前一样自残？Like you haven't been hurting yourself again?
那就随你便吧。 Have it your way then.
她想把这些给你。 She wanted you to have these.
你看过这些？ You look at these?
没有。 No.
不见得。 Not really.
没有。 No.
这不是关键， That's not the point
你知道，她也是你妹妹。 You know, she's still your sister.
不，她不是。 No, she's not.
她死了。 She's dead.
我不认识她，你也几乎不认得她。 I didn't know her and you barely did.
像她这样已经30年没当过别人的妹妹了。 Like she hasn't been anybody's sister for like 30 years.
她觉得这些可能会帮你找到 She thinks these are going to help you find
了结心愿什么的，好吗？ closure or whatever, all right?
我不会。 I don't.
好了，我要走了。 All right, I'm out of here.
对不起。 Sorry.
谢谢你能过来。 Thanks for coming over.
下次你去妈妈那里时，你可以，你知道 Next time you're at mom's, you can, you know,
可以叫上我。 just call me anytime.
好的，当然。 Yeah, sure.
别用棍子打对方。 Don't hit each other with those sticks.
小心点。 Be careful.
你们两个过来。 Come on you two.
我们走。 Let's go.
嘿，过来。 Hey, come on.
我们要走了。 We've got to go.
来吧。 Come on.
放过他。 Let's get him.
好的。 Yeah.
你从来不打电话。 You never called.
嘿，你知道这很有意思…… Hey, you know it's funny...
去休息一会吗？ Got a break coming up?
你觉得他们真的会回来吗？ Think they can ever really come back?
我觉得有可能的，只是可能不是这种方式。 I think that it's possible, just probably not in the way
我们所想的方式。 that we imagined.
我们能通过某种方式看到他们，表现思想， We can still see them somehow, manifested thoughts,
鬼魂留恋，是因为我们不能让他们离开。 ghosts lingering because we can't let them go.
但是时间还是在流逝。 But the time is still gone.
我们无法弥补这一点。 We can't make up for that.
如果我哥哥现在坐在你现在的位置， If my brother were sitting where you are right now,
你可能会恨我这么说， you're probably going to hate me for saying this,
但是没有哪次，不确定是否会发生 but without that time, not sure that things could ever
是一样的。 be the same.
我永远不会恨你，但我希望你是错的。 I could never hate you, but I hope you're wrong.
嘿。 Hey.
这里有人吗？ Is anyone there?
打开门。 Open the fucking door.
开门。 Open the door.
嘿，这是什么？ Hey, what is this?
他妈的开门。 Open the fucking door.
嘿。 Hey.
嘿，他妈的这是什么？ Hey, what the fuck is this?
嘿。 Hey.
等等。 Wait.
求你了。 Please.
操。 Fuck.
女人杀了她的全家。 Woman killed her whole family.
- 还记得吗？ - 记得。 - Remember? - Yeah.
很悲剧。 Pretty tragic.
那是你的喜好吗，亨利？ That a hobby of yours, Henry?
收集谋杀的故事？ Collecting murder stories?
不是，我刚好看过了。我记得。 No, I just read 'em. I remember 'em.
能给我个房间吗？ Can I get a room?
只有你一个人，恩？ And it's just you, huh?
是的。 Yeah.
白吃白喝。 Freeloaders.
你觉得比利是第一天干这活，对吗？ You think it's Billy's first day at the races, don't you?
什么意思？ Sorry?
你以为老比利不知道你在玩什么吗？ You think old Billy don't know what you're playing at.
听着，我只是要间房。 Look, I just need a room.
书中的老把戏。 Oldest trick in the book.
现在我来告诉你一些事，牛仔。 Now let me tell you something, buckaroo.
每次我都能看你的在一英里外的小伙伴。 I can see your kind coming a mile away every time.
这里没有特价。 Ain't no two'fer specials here.
必须给钱才能住下。 Got to pay to stay.
没有免费的。 No free ride.
订蜜月套房。 Honeymoon suite's booked.
我干这个很在行。 I do have a big old king.
你最需要这个。 Might suits your needs.
不管你说得再好听。 Whatever makes you parakeet sing.
只要你有现金，老比利不介意。 As long as you got the cash, old Billy don't mind.
这上面写着你收信用卡。 It says that you take credit cards.
不好意思。 I'm sorry.
机器坏了。 Machine just broke.
现金。 Cash.
房费50元，押金25元。 $50 for the room. $25 for the deposit.
不退款。 No refund.
教会祷告。 Praying's for church.
来吧。 Come on.
我最近没在教堂见过你。 I haven't seen you in church lately.
恩，我去教堂没什么感觉。 Well, not much sense in my going to church.
你还记得我们小时候有一次在这里…… Do you remember one time when we were small we were out here...
早上好，懒鬼。 Morning, sleepyhead.
啊！ Aghh!
没关系。 It's okay.
得把指甲剪了。 Going to have to trim these.
没关系。 It's okay.
就只是刮破了点。 It's just a scratch.
你饿了吗？ You hungry?
她做得怎么样？ How'd she do for you?
什么？ What?
她给你做的怎么样？ How'd she do for you?
她配合得好吗？ Was she a good fit?
因为有时会有点紧， Because sometimes they can be a bit tight,
不过我觉得她对你很合适。 but I reckon she did all right by you.
你他妈的开什么玩笑？ You fucking kidding me?
好吧，朋友，这里没必要那么隐晦。 Well, friend, there's no need for that kind of language.
她是我妹妹，就算如果她不是…… She's my sister, and even if she wasn't...
不，我是在说你的房间。 No, I meant your room.
那就一切都好。 All good by me then.
我就是想让大伙儿开开心。 I just want to keep everybody happy.
你明白的，别想在叶尔普斯特遇到坏事。 Don't want no bad news on the Yelpster, you know.
这附近有吃的地方吗？ Anywhere good to eat around here?
没有，先生。 No, sir.
希望有。 Wish there was.
不过有个好消息给你。 But got good news for you.
我们收了你的房费。 We got you covered.
你的房间包括了欧式早餐 Your room comes with a continental breakfast
全包括了。 all inclusive.
你有兴趣吗？ You Interested?
当然。 Sure.
祝你有个好胃口。 Bon appetite.
如果你想打包的话，请跟我说，好吗？ You let me know if you want to take anything to go, okay?
不。 No.
你会着凉。 You're fucking freezing.
没事的。 It's okay.
你会没事的。 You're going to be okay.
好吗？ Okay?
没事的。 You're okay.
你吓了我一跳。 You scared me.
操。 Fuck.
你去哪里了？ So where did you go?
亚历克斯，发生了一些惊人的事情。 Alex, something amazing has happened.
我找到她了。 I found her.
谁？ Who?
艾拉。 Ayla.
他们可以回来的。 They can come back.
他们都能回来的。 They can all come back.
你只要把它想得够糟糕就行。 You just have to want it bad enough.
埃尔顿，你做了什么？ Elton, what did you do?
听我说，我知道你有疑问，但我可以解释， Look I-I know you have questions and I have answers,
不过首先，我想让你见见她。 but first, I want you to meet her.
你妹妹？ Your sister?
我知道这听起来很怪，不过你，比任何人 I know how it sounds, but you, more than anyone,
我想和你分享这些。 I want to share this with you.
今晚你能过来吗？ Can you come over tonight?
求你了，亚历克斯。 Please, Alex.
你很忙吗？ You're busy?
不忙。 No.
不忙。 Not busy.
七点？ Seven?
好的。 Okay.
那七点见。 See you at seven.
对不起，我迟到了。 Sorry, I'm late.
没关系。 It's okay.
没事。 It's okay.
你没事的。 You're okay.
没事的。 It's okay.
我理解你。 I got you.
我想你。 I missed you.
嘿。 Hey.
今天埃尔顿在吗？ Is Elton in today?
你能告诉他，我在这里吗？ Can you tell me that I'm here?
不，不行。 No, I can't.
他休假了？ Is he on break?
你可以这么说。 You could say that.
那你知道他什么时候回来吗？ Do you know when he's going to be back?
他不会再回来了。 He's not coming back.
他今天走的吗？ He's gone for the day?
可以这么说。 You could say that.
你可以说他不见了。 You could say that he's gone.
发生什么了？ Did something happen?
他还好吗？ Is he okay?
我真的不能说，不过如果让我猜的话，我会就不好。 I really can't say but if I had to take a guess I'd say no.
你到底什么意思？ What do you mean?
他不再和我们一起了。 He's no longer with us.
不，他没死。 No, he's not dead.
你以为我说他死了。 You thought I meant he was dead.
不。 No.
他没死。 He's not dead.
他只是不在这里上班了。 He just doesn't work here anymore.
我们回家。 We're home.
噢。 Oh.
我不知道你也回来了。 I didn't know you were coming over.
妈妈跟你说了？ Mom told you?
你真他妈的不可思议，你知道吗？ You are fucking unbelievable, you know that?
我能跟你说两句吗？ Can I speak to you for a minute?
我们一会再说，好吗？ Can we do this later please?
不。 No.
就现在。 Now please.
好吧。 Okay.
好的。 Okay.
没事的。 It's okay.
我一会就回来。 I'll be right back.
我保证。 I promise.
我不会离开你的。 I'd never leave you.
好了，听着。 Okay, listen.
不。 No.
不，你听着。 No, you listen.
好吧。 Okay.
我不知道现在发生了什么 I don't know what's going on right now
我也不想知道。 and I don't think that I want to know,
但是在你把这个带到我们妈妈…… but when you bring our mother into this...
听我说。 Just hear me out.
不，我不想听。 No, I don't want to hear it.
我想听听，那边那个人是谁 I want to hear who that's supposed to be over there
或者应该怎么说。 or how this is supposed to make any sense.
我们不需要这些东西。 We don't need this shit.
詹姆斯。 James.
我觉得你应该离开。 I think you should go.
她是我母亲。 She's my mother.
嘿。 Hey.
他得去医院。 He needs to go to the hospital.
我明白，宝贝。 I understand, sweetheart.
我不是说他不应该去。 I'm not saying he shouldn't go.
好吧，那为什么我们还呆在这里？ Okay, so why are we still here?
我们走。 Let's go.
你看他贫血多厉害。 You see how anemic he is.
噢，我的天。 Oh, my god.
开始吧。 Here we go.
好吧，别生气，詹姆斯。 Okay, don't get upset James.
他不需要维生素。 He doesn't need vitamins.
你也不是医生。 You're not a doctor.
你不知道他怎么了。 You don't know what's wrong with him.
别跟我这么大声说话。 Don't raise your voice to me.
他不能留在这里。 He can't stay here.
这太妈的不负责任了。 This is fucking irresponsible.
在这房间里别这样跟我说话。 Don't talk like that in this house.
好吧。 Okay.
我要出去走一走。 I'm going to go for a walk.
好的。 Good.
对年经人来说，这总是很难。 It's always harder for the younger sibling.
艾尔也这么大了。 Al was so much older.
我觉得这更难了。 I think it was harder even still.
他一直是一个父亲的形象 He was always more of a father figure
而不是詹姆斯的哥哥。 than a big brother to James.
在他们小时候，噢，他真的很尊敬他。 And when they were younger, oh, he really looked up to him.
从来不听我的，只听他哥的。 Never listened to me, only his brother.
现在他只是跟我们一样找到了自己。 Now he's just finding his way like we all are.
他是个可爱的男孩。 He's a darling boy.
年龄越太，更让我想起彼此。 The older they get the more they remind me of each other.
别跟他们说我说的话。 Don't tell them I said that.
什么也不会变，你知道吗？ Doesn't change a thing, you know?
你什么意思？ What do you mean?
你知道，她会把这些吃掉。 You knew that she was going to eat this shit up.
就像你在向皈依的人布道一样， It's like you're preaching to the converted with her,
确认新时代水晶灵媒的每一个碎片 validating every scrap of that new-age crystal psychic voodoo
胡说。 bullshit.
操。 Fuck.
就好像你成了她的酒鬼朋友。 It's like you became her drinking buddy.
什么时候的事？ When did that happen?
不是这样的。 It's not like that.
噢，真的。 Oh, really.
那么，谁应该坐在这里？ So who's that supposed to be sitting over there
和妈妈，恩？ with mother, huh?
你的新女朋友，你来把她介绍给你的家人？ Your new girlfriend, you came to introduce her to the family.
就像是一模一样的狗屎。 It's just like the exact same kind of shit
就像我们小时候那样，我总是拉着我们。 that she used to pull on us when we were kids.
我不认为她会跟你说。 I didn't think she'd tell you.
我真的希望她不会。 I really wish she hadn't.
噢，为什么？ Oh, why?
所以你们彼此安静的相互洗脑？ So you guys can just brainwash each other in peace?
别告诉我。 Don't tell James.
他甚至不知道。 He doesn't even know.
感谢你照顾我，兄弟。 Thanks for looking out for me, brother.
也许你们俩很般配。 Maybe you two deserve each other.
也许我应该停止胡扯。 Maybe I should just stop giving a shit.
那就会大伙的生活都会轻松一点。 That would make everyone's life a whole lot easier,
是不是？ wouldn't it?
当你再次决定离开时，谁来照顾她？ Who's going to be there for her when you decide to leave again?
在她需要有人聊天时，谁来陪她？ Who's she going to call when she needs someone to talk to?
我。 Me.
永远都是我。 It's always going to be me.
总是我。 It's always me.
你为什么不离开？ Why don't you just leave?
你留在这里对谁也没好处。 You're not doing anyone any good by staying here.
对不起。 I'm sorry.
如果你真的对不起的话，那你就应当离开。 If you're sorry then you'll just go and we'll call it even.
我希望我能让你们理解。 I wish I could make you understand.
你真的想让我相信她是我妹妹？ You really want me to believe that that's her?
你没看到相似之处吗？ You don't see the resemblance?
和四岁就死的女孩相比？ To a dead four-year-old girl?
不，我不信。 No, I don't.
你好好看看，行吗？ You do see it, don't you?
噢，让我歇一会。 Oh, give me a break.
有好多人看上去像另外一个人， There's a lot of people who look like a lot of people,
对吗？ all right?
那你在哪里找到这个女孩的？ So where'd you find this girl?
网上？ Online?
我在梦里见到她。 I saw her in the dream?
那你在什么地方找到你的梦中情人的？ So where did you find this girl of your dreams?
就像是聊天室里吗？ Like was it in a chat room?
还是在酒吧里？ Was it a meet up at a bar?
你根本没在听。 You're not really listening.
不，我在听。 No, I'm listening.
我只是不能相信这一切。 I just don't believe it for a second.
我只是觉得你吃得不多好，宝贝。 I just really think you're not eating enough sweetheart.
我没事，妈妈。 I'm fine, mom.
嘿，再来一块奶酪怎么样？ Hey, how about another piece of cheesecake.
要不明天就得扔了， I have to get rid of it tomorrow anyway
我知道你最爱吃了。 and I know it's your favorite.
我没事，妈妈。 I'm fine, mom.
我吃意大利面。 Pasta filled me up.
好的，好的。 Okay, good.
你回家后，记得要吃那些补品。 Try and remember to take those supplements when you get home,
好吗？ Okay?
你确定我什么也不能给你吗，亲爱的？ You sure there's nothing I can get you, dear?
别浪费时间。 Don't waste your time.
她几乎没吃晚饭。 She hardly touched her dinner.
没事，妈妈。 It's fine, mom.
她只是不太会吃东西。 She's just not a big eater.
她也不太爱说话。 She's not a big talker either.
什么？ What?
从她到这里后，她一句话也没说过。 She hasn't said one word since she's gotten here.
听着，我不可能是唯一一个 Like, I can't be the only person that
感觉到怪异的人。 thinks that's kind of weird.
詹姆斯，别乱说。 James, don't be rude.
我给你弄点汤，亲爱的。 I could fix you some soup, dear.
听起来不错吧？ Does that sound good?
很好。 It's fine.
如果一会她饿了，我来照顾她。 If she gets hungry later, I'll take care of it.
好的。 Okay.
好的，好的。 All right, okay.
好的，好的。 Okay, all right.
很高兴你能回家。 So good to have you home.
我知道，妈妈。 I know, mom.
我想睡觉去了。 I think I'm going to bed.
在你房间里有一些毛毯。 There's some blankets in your room
在她觉得冷时可以用。 if she gets cold down here.
谢谢，妈妈。 Thanks, Mom.
别熬夜太晚了。 And don't stay up too late.
我要去书房用我的空气床垫去了。 I'm just going to tough it out in the library with my air mattress.
噢，沙发舒服吧，宝贝。 Oh, enjoy the couch sweetheart.
我上月买的。 I bought that last month.
我的计划不全是这些。 Not exactly what I planned.
那他妈的还有什么？ What the fuck?
你在这里做什么？ What are you doing here?
好吧。 Okay.
你理解我。 You got me.
你现在是饿了吗？ What are you hungry or something now?
你做什么？ What did you do?
你为什么又这样做？ Why are you doing this again?
为什么？ Why?
噢，天哪。 Oh, God.
你需要帮助。 You need help.
你以为是我干的？ You think I did this?
你就站在这里，而你 You're going to stand there and you're
还想否认？ going to try to deny this?
你以为是我干的？ You think I did this?
什么？ What?
是我们这样对你的吗？ Is it is it us doing this to you?
我们是伤害你的人吗？ Are we the ones that are hurting you?
噢，我的天。 Oh, God.
你生病了。 You're sick.
我病了。 I'm sick.
我要去拿急救箱，混蛋。 I'm going to get a first aid kit, asshole.
现在要伤害我？ Feel like hurting me now?
别走。 Don't move.
更喜欢它。 That's more like it.
我在想帮你，混蛋。 I'm trying to help you, asshole.
我不需要你帮忙。 We don't need your help.
如果你要这样，你应当离开。 If you're going to be like that you should move.
艾尔。 Al.
对不起。 I'm sorry.
我知道，我希望你没有告诉他我们要来。 You know, I wish you hadn't told him we were coming.
你们以前很亲密的。 You used to be so close.
我希望你们俩都记得以前的日子。 I wish you'd both remember that one of these days.
你们都是我的孩子。 You're both my boys.
我知道，妈妈。 I know, Mom.
对不起。 I'm sorry.
好了。 Okay.
你到家给我来个电话。 You call me when you get home safely.
没问题。 Of course.
太累的话，就停车。 And stop if you need to.
去旅馆。 Get a motel.
你有现金吗？ Do you have cash?
我有，妈妈。 I'm covered, Mom.
别担心。 Don't worry.
别忘了吃我给你的那些补品。 And don't forget to take those supplements I gave you.
尤其是维生素D，我觉得那对你有好处。 Especially the vitamin D. I think it can really help you.
不要整天只呆在公寓里。 Don't stay cooped up in that apartment all the time.
出去走走。 Get out.
散散步。 Take a walk.
做点事。 Go do things.
我知道，妈妈。 I know mom.
我知道。 I know.
也许等天气暖和了，我们再过来。 Maybe we can come back when it gets warmer.
不。 No.
什么？ What?
你知道，你随时可以来的，宝贝。 You know you're always welcome here, sweetheart.
我知道你需要在这方面做个了结。 And I know you need to get closure around this.
你什么意思？ What do you mean?
我不知道那是谁。 I don't know who that is.
是的，你做了。 Yes, you do.
不。 No.
你妹妹很久以前就跟我说再见了。 Your sister said goodbye to me a long time ago.
我看到你看着她的样子。 I saw the way you looked at her.
我看着你，妈妈。 I saw you, Mom.
你比任何人都应该相信的。 You more than anyone, you have to believe.
我希望你能。 I wish you could.
我希望我能。 I wish I could.
但是，我真的认为你应该放手了。 But I really think you need to let this go now.
别担心。 Don't worry.
我不会再带她回来了。 I won't bring her back here.
艾尔。 Al.
对不起。 I'm sorry.
我可能不应该打电话的。 I probably shouldn't be calling.
我不知道我还能做什么？ I don't know what else to do.
我想我犯了个错误，一个很大的错误。 I think I made a mistake, a really big mistake.
我不知道如何改正它。 I don't know how to fix this.
我不知道是否有办法解决这些。 I don't know if there is any way to fix this anymore.
我希望你在这里，因为我觉得你知道该怎么做。 I wish you were here because I think you'd know what to do
我想我会听你的。 and I think I'd listen to you.
我想，你是唯一一个我相信的人。 I think you're the only one I'd listened to,
但是你不在这里。 but you're not here.